{"id":46,"date":"2022-12-24T00:27:01","date_gmt":"2022-12-24T00:27:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/2022\/12\/24\/mohawk\/"},"modified":"2023-01-11T02:26:09","modified_gmt":"2023-01-11T02:26:09","slug":"mohawk","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/2022\/12\/24\/mohawk\/","title":{"rendered":"Mohawk"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"file:\/\/\/private\/var\/mobile\/Containers\/Shared\/AppGroup\/B769044E-BFB1-4F61-885F-355CD1D71AC9\/Media\/image_b0962540-cc71-489f-a3af-8ca309aed50f.jpg\" class=\"size-full\" data-wp_upload_id=\"image_b0962540-cc71-489f-a3af-8ca309aed50f.jpg\"><\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m still astounded by the critical voice judging my artwork in my head, and how if I let time pass, how much it changes. I don&#8217;t even remember drawing this, but it was months ago. I look at it now with a pleasant reverence: <em>I did that? That&#8217;s pretty good<\/em>. And yet as I draw in this moment none of that voice is apparent. It&#8217;s all the flaws and negative thoughts.<\/p>\n<p>But look at something days, weeks, months later and it&#8217;s if a totally different person did it, even if i know it was me. Why I can&#8217;t hold on to that more supportive voice in real time is not clear. But it is clear that it might get easier if I keep going.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m still astounded by the critical voice judging my artwork in my head, and how if I let time pass, how much it changes. I don&#8217;t even remember drawing this, but it was months ago. I look at it now with a pleasant reverence: I did that? That&#8217;s pretty good. And yet as I draw [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":45,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"bgseo_title":"","bgseo_description":"","bgseo_robots_index":"","bgseo_robots_follow":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-46","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/12\/image_b0962540-cc71-489f-a3af-8ca309aed50f-scaled.jpg","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=46"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":49,"href":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46\/revisions\/49"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/45"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=46"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=46"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iantm.com\/create\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=46"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}